my perfect day

i miss the sunny days with blue sky and beautiful clouds.

I want time to spend with my close ones.

I wanna be free, and hopefully one day i will be able to leap and jump without any

burden

God has a plan for me!

Uni applications, VTAC applications, Scholarships, student residential, Uni courses, ENTER Score!

All these things are freaking my lung out.

Will i get through this? 

What will happen if i never make it?

Is melbourne uni still available for me ?

What if the course that i want to do isn't the right thing for me?

Am i doing this for my parents or for me?

clearly i am not any of those who are blessed with brilliant brains, with great intelligence born with my brain, never played a single music instrument, never get a chance to use the left brain. clearly i do not have 99.95 secure in my hands.

With my less developed brain, short fingers i have doubt of myself. 

However, 

"I am beautifully and wonderfully created by the most high God, with a purpose for my life."

"God is with me, who will go against me?"

God has a road, a path built for me, and i am walking down with God!

When things seems dark and gloomy, i have to remind myself that i am not alone. 

Seriously i am not alone, just when i wanted to cry, i have a friend to talk to,

just when i need God's help, God you sent me Steph and Taya.

They are the most gorgeous person u would ever met! They are like angels to me!

To the people out there who feel like u r just a normal person with not that many special talent,

its ok to be normal, 

you may think you are normal now, you better change the way you think,

because you are not like any other person,

you are special and wonderfully made!

its just that your secret talent is still immature, when its fully developed, you will shine like a star no, no, you will shine like a sun! and impacting people lives, giving warmth and joy to people! You will be so bright that no one will miss you!

You ARE AWESOME!!!!

17 weeks left till VCE!!

omgoodness-freaky-germinal-galvani- graphs!!!

I am so not ready!

MONASH UNI OPEN DAY, here i come!

this morning at 8.02am I got a phone call.

"hello... [super sleepy tired exhausted mode]"

hi, how are you?

HELLO? WHO IS THIS? WHAT DO YOU WANT?

hi i'm ~xxc=h~[too blur in the morning]

WAT? CANT HEAR U?

I'm your secret admirer.

OOH, HI. WHAT DO YOU WANT?

....speaking gibberish.....

WHAT?

....speaking gibberish....

OK...erm..nice talking to you, but i cant hear a thing u said, i gtg..have a nice day.

i have no idea why did i picked up that call, and i had no idea why did i talked to that person for so long..it was kinda freaky now that i think of it.
but poor guy he probs feeling lonely and doesn't have anything to do with his life.
but yea, sat down and prayed for that guy that called, hope God will speak to him and send someone into his life and talk to him.

BUDGET ASSIGNMENT IS KILLING ME!

" I can do all things through Christ who gives me STRENGTH!"

I am so broke!!! seriously! i only can spend $4.oo maximum per week!


I really wanna go home!
i really wanna go shopping!! but when i look at my bank account, and saw there are not much left, i feel so left out. How come there are somebody who could spend so much for themselves, and yet there are people who has nothing to spend at the same time.


Anyways...i am watching this video with Bo right next to me..it took me forty minutes to type this out.
Back to the video, its about this girl being bullied by others in school, and how the girls are so bitchy and the other people in class can't do anything...and the head of the bitchy group has a bf from the real mafia...and it took me an hour to type this...BO! u r so distracting!!!

I totally FLUNKED Chemistry!

this time there is not a minute of doubt, all the question that i did, less than half of them, i did wrong. 

I am not kidding here, there is this random thought in my head as i walked out of the exam hall, why dint i try to break my finger, arm or leg? then they might spare me some extra time, just right for me to check my answers and correct them.

When i encounter Q2 in Section B, i got stuck, the minute i got stuck, Jessie's face popped out from no where, and seeing her writing down all the answers. how i wish i could just lean over and have a look at what she's doing. As another hard question pops out, Jessie's face kept popping out in my mind! and thats annoying!  Sorry Jessie if you are reading this.

I really wanna give up, when i know there's no hope doing it anymore, whats the whole point of doing this, if  i know i am going to get a F for it. Whats the whole entire idea of doing this when i know, my dad won't allow me to do anything relating to science. What's the use of continuing when i know, i suck at chem??

ohwell, worse comes to worse, Thank God i am not alone.

hi people, this is the design for this year's boarders' jumpers.
i thinkthey should stop saying boarders' JUMPER ,because, when i starts to make call and talk to sales person, i kept saying jumpers, but its hoodies that we want.
and at the end of the phone call, the sales person will always ask me
" So, do you want jumpers or hoodies for your year 12s ??"

We are having black HOODIES, with bright blue prints on it! :) i cant wait to see the results of it! yey!!

everyone is getting sick lately.. God please heal this place! in Jesus's name AMEN!

ohya... more formal photos!!! go to this website

I cant please everyone in this whole entire world.

i have to keep reminding myself that. There are all different people in this world.
People who can go with the flow

 people who will ignore everyone and do their own things in their own world,

and there are some MAFAN people who will do

 ANYTHING and EVERYTHING TO MAKE PEOPLE DO THE WAY THEY WANT TO.

HELLO?

if you don't like the way the world is turning 

and the sun rising from the east and setting at the WEST...

then "SUCKS TO BE YOU!!!"

FAIL

"Girls, time to stop writing and hand in your paper."

This is the time when most students will be panicking and hoping that the time will never be here. When the last second of the test, i forced myself to stop writing and make myself to hand in the worst paper that i ever did. and there is Stephanie who was talking to the teacher how well she did. and there was me half tearing running away from the cold room of despair.

the expectations from parents, the pressures from myself, the need of getting a pass for my test, crushed my soul. walking up that hill to success is not easy and they often makes you cry. There are so many people who can afford the chairlift and make it to the top. and there are people who are gifted with great talents where they could achieve anything in anything. And lastly there are the loser gang. and guess wat, i fit perfectly in this group especially when i'm talking about chemistry.

anyway, it was pretty depressing yesterday, and as i expected, when we got back my test today, i trashed it.


NO MORE SLACKING!
NO MORE EATING JUNK!
NO MORE SOCIALIZING DURING STUDY TIME!!
100% ON CHEM N ECO N MM N ESL N HHD!!
THE FUTURE IS IN GOD'S HANDS,BUT IT DEPENDS ON ME TO SHAPE IT!!!

It has been ages since the last time i posted anything on this thingy..
but its alright, not like anyone would care, there are hundred thousands of nicer blogs than mine.
things had been doing great lately, except for all the workloads and troubles that i got into..

2 weeks ago, we had our last yr12 formal. it was fantastic! the place is great, the music was awesome. People are BEAUtiful!






ok it takes too long to upload all the photos, but i had such great time!! love u all!!!


back to work!! STRESSSSSSS!!! pray for my chem test tmr!! desperate to have a pass!!!

Attention!!

WANTED!!!!







the boarding house is currently missing a bunch of keys with an elmo key chain with it. the consequences of not returning the keys are: there will not be any entry to the computer room, the laundry, common rooms, linen room...

which means that there are not going to be any washing, no fun, no hang out place, no HOMEWORK, in the boarding house. And which means, there will be more complains, unfair, comments made to the boarding house. Which also then equals to slack day cause there wont be any computers provided for people to do their homework.

They are basically closing the doors to our freedom! Freedom to cleanness , freedom to the outer world, freedom to our SOCIAL LIFE! they have no rights to do all these!

PLS RETURN THE KEYS! BECAUSE IF U R THINKING OF FORGING ANOTHER KEY, U STILL HAVE TO KNOW THE PASSWORDS TO ALL THE ALARM SYSTEMS. the keys are going to be useless and there is NO point taking them.UNless u r thinking of coming back here to work..which is quite an easy job, but still they r useless!!

I WOULD NEVER give up my computer time and others' precious time with a lousy bunch of keys with an elmo key chain!!

Identity and Belonging

wow, it long time ago since the last time i've been blogging...duno how to start..

This week in ESL, we have been looking at the topic- Identity and Belonging

this is such an awesome topic i have to say, we all love to have a scrap book that we get to keep that stores all of the articles that interest us or related to the topic. We love to explore the identity and history of a certain person, and know about what makes them so special, and what makes them to be themselves.

When msThompson handed the booklet to us, by just looking at the cover which have "IDENTITY AND BELONGING" in size 46, i have this great instance to shout out, "I AM A GOD'S CHILD, HE LOVES ME AND HE LOVES YOU TOO!"...imagine if i took the stand and shout out his name..

there would only be 2 outcome,

* they would shout at me, and asked me to sit down and remain silent

* or they would let me keep telling how i found Jesus and how i found my identity and how i found the love that no one else could replace!


hehe...random..

anyways,
international week is here, and its AWESOME!!! finally i got to wear my beautiful orange/batik looking skirt..hehe..well i think its a really pretty skirt..Thank God for the wonderful culture mix we have in PLC, and boarding house...its just so awesome! hongkie night was great, i felt so much like home...thank you yr11's !! u guys did a great job on making people feel like they are in HK..hehe

God bless ya~!!

Saviour King

Sometimes things may seem dark and gloomy, and looks like its the end of the world. you just got to look forward, look at the bright side. even the darkest hour in the day, there will be a glimpse of light, a glimpse of hope..waiting..waiting for you to search and look for it.

Jesus, you are the glimpse of light in our darkest hour.

sick..

"on monday, the temperature for melbourne is going to be 37'C"

ok...37 is less than 40 and close to 35, omg! it is 37! the weather was so damn hot! the radiation from the sun was unbearable! i forgot that the b.hse is opening at 5.00pm. i left early from my sis's house to Glenwaverly to have nice breaky/lunch with my dearest sis! but after lunch, i have no where to go, and i totally forgot that the b.hse is opening late.

when i reached the boardo, i was not suprised that it wasnt open...i got all things worked out.. i will have my homework lay out under the shade with my coooling water bottle next to me, and have my ipod on...and start being a nerd.

but when i reached there i saw bryndll was also there waiting for the b.hse to be open. then we decided to go to the Greens family for refuge. the green's family has so many visitors and guests that day..Aunty Jene, Rebecca (once a b.hse staff), Bec's friend, and us! Aunty Jene said that the Green's house is like a refugee's camp..hehe...quite true..

Thank U Jesus for sending such great family to PLC...they are seriously the best family , and the largest family u ever meet! Their faith believing in you is so inspiring!

anywayz...Jesus i believe U will heal me Lord! in Jesus's name i will be healed and be a witness of your miracles. i pray that i will not the other 9 person that will forget about the greatness of you. thank you Jesus for taking such good care of me!

Lord...pls take good care of the people who needs hope, who needs healing, who needs love, who needs strength, who needs direction, who needs you.

Happy Birthday!!

last Friday was 29th of Feb, its always has been a special date for my family. on this day, we usually will have a giant feast with friends and with a huge bunch of visitors coming into our hse...this is not just a normal day, its MY SISTER'S, MUNYEE'S BIRTHDAY! i love my sister loads!! she may not be the best sister ever, but she is trying her best to be one. well some people may thinks that she's not doing good enough, but i have to say that, she is the best sister i could ever ask for!

she had a small party in her new house, they still doesnt have a couch or sofas for people to sit on, they are missing a light bulb for the light, there are not enough space for everyone to stand, but it is just the best parties ever. this is a total alcohol free party, only water were served, and heapz of chocos and chips were given out to people :)

although there ARE HEAPZ AND HEAPZ OF homework stacked up back in the boardo, i had fun being with my sis and her beloved frens. its so good to leave plc and stay out of the mess once a while. i reallyy dont wanna come back to this hole...mrs murphy commented on my facebook saying that burwood might be a hole, but there is Jesus that is always there to light up my world :) how thoughtful...

but the grieve of coming back is just too horrible..

anywayz i had fun moving my sis's furnitures from her old house to her new house. thank God for the 3 strong guys (SAm, Tim, Ben) who helped carrying the mattress...we were carrying them manually on the street. we were tired from laughing at the guys carrying the gigantore mattress...haha...that was seriously awkward...

all the best for people who are doing their english SAC on monday...how scary..

I AM CURRENTLY STRESSING ABOUT YR12!!

Year 12 is not an easy year! there's so much work to do!! So much things to plan!! Being a leader is not easy, being a GOOD example is not easy!! now i know how bad is it to be the oldest..and being a captain! and the worst thing about yr12 is it is our last year in school, after this yr, no more schooling days, no more spoon feeding and u r out and about all around the REAL world! and then you are all on your own, looking and searching for the right answer, and this is going to be so diff from giving an answer from the chem set work!! which is so damn hard!!! ahhh!!! i am not ready for yr 12, and i am not ready for uni!!!

so much work! so little time! God i need you Lord! Thank you Jesus for being with me when i am doing my work, thank You for helping me to focus on my work and help me to finish it and hand them in just right on the due dates, it is so hard being a year 12 but this will not stop me from holding onto you!




Trusting and believing Jesus









anyways, i havent started my chem chapter 4 setwork...:'(

With or Without You

With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away

Lord, I can't live without you.

Devoted

In the dictionary, it said that being devoted is to give all or a large part of one's time or resources to a person, activity, or cause.

Being devoted is being focus on everything that you marked as your goal, and try your hardest and give it your best to achieve it! But for me personally, its really hard, cause i am never devoted to anything, but this year, i have to learn how to be different...As the Bible always say," Draw near to God, and he will draw near to us" thats just so amazing!


this are going to be our planetshakers' GOAL for year 2008

*bring atleast one person to God, its already being part of my new year resolution

*See that person being discipled and established

*Be involved in a community project(s)

* Go on mission trips-i am already..kind of..

*Ask God to GIVE us a better knowledge og God and help us to speak in great words of God

*Be used in acts of kindness

*Have supernatural FAITH in financial giving and ask God for ideas to resource the kingdom

*Get connected

*HAVE FACE TO FACE ENCOUNTER EVERYDAY

*Develop your kowledge of God through the Word and the obedience to the Holy Spirit

great and awesome!! lets get ourselves devoted to HIM !! yey!!

Year 12 Investiture

today is year 12 investiture assembly.
went up to the stage and read a bible reading..it was the worst bible reading ever!
i woke up early in the morning..practiced in my room for a hundred times, and i realized its the wrong bible translation that im doin..so...without any practise at all..apparently i was cute, and i was doing faces to other people down the stage, when i was sitting down...ya i admit that i did do some , a little face for charmaine, who was sitting down there,,,ohwell...hehe


reading

getting my badge

my babies

boardo comitteeeee

i decided to post this cause i love u emilie!!

cool pose!

Emil...Ie, ju..Lie




my mommy in PLC!

MY SRI LANKAN MOM!!

I hhave no idea, how is it going to be like on the last day of school, i cant imagine the first of school, and now, i'm thinking of last day of school..i lovve u all!!

yr12~

today is the first day being a yr12 student.
this does not feels good..timetables are pretty ok...got heapz mor of spares now, 9 spares,but each spares that i had are stressful and no more relaxing!

today had my 1st spare of the year, and all i want to do is jus o to the comp room, and go online...but as i was walking to that area, christine caught me with her maths question and took me into a classroom. ahh!

then everyone was doin their work..all over me..
im all surrounded by stressed year 12's!!!



stress

broken souls

learning to trust

irresponsible? not trustworthy? unreliable?

the chamber wasbroken in

broken bonds, broken hearts, broken promises, broken souls

i could never understand his unique wonderfully created mind,
he's always in his own imagination,
in his own world,
in his wonderland,
how i wish i could go into his mind and have a closer look
his simple carefree mind is so tender and vulnerable
as time passed by
media, presure, maturing.. took his purity away,took his young vibrant soul away
kept splashing dark ink covering the real truth


Father,i ask you to bring him back,
give him all the comforts that he really needs
give him the courage to take up the next step
give him the love that he desires
give him a sense of purpose
give him his identity

holiday!

i cant believe my holiday is endng so quick!
i really really dun wanna go bac to PLC! thr's so much pressure ova thr!! add on its the last yr of high sku,
with extra stress, and extra stuff to do!!! ahhh!! I AM SUPA 100% STRESS NOW!!
i dun understand how sis n all the others could handle all these!
right now im blogging upstairs all alone in this empty house.. have no idea whether is anyone downstairs
maybe theres someone robbing..moving all the furnitures without me knowing..ohwell..*random*
so much work havent been finish! so much things to be done!

let me get on my feet again, put on the mask, put on that mascara, U Go Girl! and trust upon Christ who will strengthen me!
though its hard to believe, and trust, but we have to learn to do it.


anyways..according to ling, we only hav 18days left! ahhh


holiday was awesome! met up with old frens that i really dun wanna loose! thinking bac to those days when i was still in CHS...
wat if i never left that place?
wat if i stayed on and never left malaysia?
wat if my family like other families migrated to aus...
im really glad and grateful that i made the right choice
but sometimes i began to wonder, which sides do i really belong to..



i love u all!!!